You are getting VERY sleepy…..but you can’t stop reading

it’s really becoming a problem for me i think when i find books that i feel i just HAVE to keep reading even when it’s 3am and i’m exhausted that i can’t even function.  and especially when i’m at work the next day and i’m no good to anyone.  well……


I managed to finish BITTER BLUE by Kristin Cashore and i hate to say it but it was worth staying up late for a couple nights just to finish it in about 3 days 🙂  my issue now is that i’m imagining that all the rate in the subway here are really ‘monster’ rats and i keep trying to see silver and gold fur.  that’s kind of gross since NYC rats really are monsters…and not in a good way.

i feel just a little let down though – which is sad.  i wish that more was developed in the story and that there were certain relationships that were talked about more .  if you haven’t read it yet…then SPOILER ALERT!!!

how can we read about Queen Bitterblue losing her virginity to Saf, and then they barely even see each other let alone touch after that?  anyone else disappointed?  when things like this happen, i kind of wish that the author had more of a definite intention of writing a follow up and what i’ve read on Kristin Cashore’s blog is that it’s not certain at all.  i wish that it were more like a Katsa/Po thing where you know that they are in love and that even though they split up for months at a time, you know they will return to each other.

i kind of also want to know what’s going to happen when the 2 worlds are merged…the Dells and Monsea etc.  that would be interesting.  and how come we had the bomb dropped on us that Madlen was Dellian but that’s about all that’s said about it?  she never eluded to the fact that the stories that Leck told were true….or even hinted at anything…at least nothing that i picked up on.

regardless – it was worth my sheer exhaustion over the past couple days, and now it’s on to the next book, since i’m just not happy until i can escape into the next world/story/fantasy . 



you know a good author/book when you’re reading reading reading and you can’t seem to put the book down, and then all of a sudden it’s like you’re SMACKED in the face because the book has ended with a major cliffhanger.

Veronica Roth and Insurgent is that example right now.  It took me just over 2 days to read the whole thing and i’m really happy to say that i didn’t figure it all out while i was reading which is my biggest problem.  it’s kind of hard for me i think because my mind jumps ahead to figure out what the twists are going to be and what’s going to happen in the ending that sometimes i rush through what i’m reading to just GET THERE.  With Insurgent, i really wanted to read it all through quickly of course, but at the same time, making sure to catch all the details since there was a lot going on.

what kind of always leaves me feeling a bit depressed after reading such great books though, is that i always wish that i could be that creative and have a story like that holed up in my brain just waiting to come out – but it never happens that way does it?  i like to consider myself to be relatively creative, but i wonder if i’d have it in me to write a story like Divergent/Insurgent, or well…just about anything great that’s out there.

aside from lack of personal creativity (clearly) is the notion that i just realized an author to one of my new favs Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi is really young.  she’s an AMAZING writer yet she’s sooo young.  i don’t know how she did it/does it, but that takes a lot of talent (for lack of a better word).

anyway, now i’m 1/3 of the way through Kristin Cashore’s Bitterblue and that’s going to be yet another one that i have to stop myself from trying to figure out before i get into it.  i’m already 200 pages in and I wish i knew the twists and turns that i know i’ll figure out if i just read patiently.



It only took about 18 hours, but FINALLY – my day has turned a corner and i’ve FINALLY been able to download both Insurgent by Veronica Roth and Bitterblue by Kristin Cashore.  now all i really have to do is finish the last 30 pages or so of Incarceron and i can get started on my long awaiting sequels!

the question now becomes – what do i remember of each story – and what can i mange not to confuse?  it’s really funny when you think about the aspects of a story that you really hold on to and then what you take to other stories when you’re awaiting sequels…and then what you’ve managed to work into your real life like the books ARE REAL.  (aren’t they?) 

yea – i know – i’m not making sense – but this is what happens when you’re trying to make sense out of thoughts and have toddlers screaming at you about ‘stuffins’ or ‘dabba dabba’

i’ve got a lot of reading to FINISH and a lot of reading to START – so FINALLY yes FINALLY – i’m going to get to it.  here i come #DivergentNation – #INSURGENT and #BITTERBLUE!